I suppose it was my fault. There was not one single thing on my dating profile that said “I will not let you borrow $50 until payday.” My bad! Noted though. I just assumed that some things are just off the table. But like they say, ‘to assume, makes an ass of you and me.’ Also noted. I’m telling you that you can’t make this shit up.
So, the guy I’ve been talking to for the last couple weeks, (you know…the one in my previous post that I referred to as the male version of myself) asked me to borrow money. If I was the fighting type of woman, I’d be taking off my earrings right about now and kicking off my heels. But since I’m not, I cried a little about it and now I’m just laughing on the inside. I mean really…I literally saw him for 1 hour.
His conversation was decent and he seemed like he was a decent person. We texted most of the day for the last 2 weeks and I truly enjoyed it. Some of the things he said were a little crazy and possessive but deep down were also a little intriguing and sexy…I am who I am…don’t judge. But today, just when I thought I’ve seen everything, this fool blindsided me.
Good morning, how did you sleep, how’s work, texts…all good, right? About 11:45 this fool hit me with a “could you do me a favor” text. Oh shit. And honestly, I knew out the gate where it was going. I waited a couple minutes before I responded, because I try to do anything in my power to avoid having a negative image of someone seared in my mind. But that’s only because in my younger days, I still like to date them for a few more months just so I can get a 1-10 on their level of disrespect for me. I am a numbers person, after all. So, I responded with ‘depends.’ I was praying hard that it was ‘do me a favor and send me a picture’, or ‘do me a favor and take off work Friday and we can paint pumpkins all day.’ But I knew deep down his response was going to deflate me. And sho’nuff, he did not disappoint. What had happened was…he lost his wallet and needs $50. I suppose he missed it in the 60 minutes that he spent with me that I didn’t have cable because I couldn’t afford it. I was right in the middle of something important at work and I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. Now, I’m full on crying at work. Mostly because I was so pissed off.
My exact response: I’m not going to even begin to tell you how wrong that is…But no. And I’m done with this whole conversation. You don’t know me like that to ask me and you just ruined everything that I thought about you in my head.
He replied back on some bullshit, talking about it shows him something about me.
My exact response: I would never ask you is the difference because that’s not your responsibility. I would ask my friends and family not some dude I seen in person for 1 hour. And I hope it did show you something about me!
He replied back a few more things about ‘if he had it, he would give it to me,’ blah blah blah. I won’t even bother telling him that I would give the shirt off my back to someone if they needed it or that my heart is the best thing about me or that my whole life has been spent catering to other people or that my loyalty to people is something that people don’t find too often anymore or that I’m faithful or that I can throw down in the kitchen and the bedroom. But some people aren’t worth your explanation. And he certainly is NOT!!
My struggle here is that I feel like God puts you in positions to help people. And when you have the ability to do so, and you don’t, maybe you are blocking your own blessings. For all I know, I was the only person he had to ask and I made him feel bad about it and didn’t help him. And that is where my struggle lies today.
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